Okay Sunday
So... just to fill you in on the shallow stuff...
Friday I went clubbing with Vicki, Jennifer, Linda and Evve. Also ran into Albana at tusenochennatt. And no poeple, I did not get pissed, not that you'd care I guess. Vicki and I went for a walk, she's such a sweety-pie.
Yesterday I hung out with Vicki. We rented a film (Heartbreak kid), it was good. Ben Stiller's still got it. And we watched Moulin Rouge, again. Wonderful film really, great songs. Anyway we had lots of fun.
Today, I went for a walk and went to see the sheep. Aren't they just the cutest, huh?
And today, 13th of April, is Sam's birthday. HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY to you, boo boo bido. A lot of people turining 19 now, time flies.
And as for the profound stuff, heck I don't know.
I feel very restricted when I talk, so I leave things unsaid I guess. At the moment I feel very distressed and easily upset. If I seem angry, I'm sorry. Some things just come out wrong and I'm sorry for that. I don't want to hold a grudge but I guess I do. Although sometimes I think I've got the right to do so.
Right now, I don't mean right now but more like in this period of my life, I find myself to be lost. I have no idea where or what I am. I don't know where I've been and I don't know where I'm headed. Anyone who's reading this is probably thinking "yeah, she's just like any other teenager, lost". Well, I guess you're right. But it's damn hard being lost and not knowing where to run. And not even knowing what to run for, why keep going? What is my bloody goal, what am I fighting for, eh? The things I fought for before all went down the drain.
I have friends, and I like them. Do they like me back? I don't know. Do I give them a chance to like me? I don't know. I'm a very closed-up person and I have a great need for privacy. I simply have to be on my own once in a blue moon. That creates problems, big problems that I don't know how to solve. I wish I could change, I wish I could be better. I try, without any success. I simply don't know what I'm trying for.
"The why, the who, the what, the where and the how, 'til I'm grabbing my hair and I'm tearing it out" -Eminem.
I'm sorry people, I'm sorry I'm lost. Perdita sum. And for those who cannot see my p.o.v., just bear with me if you would. After all, I have told you before.
Please stop asking me, I have no idea what to tell you.
Ebba.
Förresten, hoppas att det gick bra idag Vicki ;)
Friday I went clubbing with Vicki, Jennifer, Linda and Evve. Also ran into Albana at tusenochennatt. And no poeple, I did not get pissed, not that you'd care I guess. Vicki and I went for a walk, she's such a sweety-pie.
Yesterday I hung out with Vicki. We rented a film (Heartbreak kid), it was good. Ben Stiller's still got it. And we watched Moulin Rouge, again. Wonderful film really, great songs. Anyway we had lots of fun.
Today, I went for a walk and went to see the sheep. Aren't they just the cutest, huh?
And today, 13th of April, is Sam's birthday. HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY to you, boo boo bido. A lot of people turining 19 now, time flies.
And as for the profound stuff, heck I don't know.
I feel very restricted when I talk, so I leave things unsaid I guess. At the moment I feel very distressed and easily upset. If I seem angry, I'm sorry. Some things just come out wrong and I'm sorry for that. I don't want to hold a grudge but I guess I do. Although sometimes I think I've got the right to do so.
Right now, I don't mean right now but more like in this period of my life, I find myself to be lost. I have no idea where or what I am. I don't know where I've been and I don't know where I'm headed. Anyone who's reading this is probably thinking "yeah, she's just like any other teenager, lost". Well, I guess you're right. But it's damn hard being lost and not knowing where to run. And not even knowing what to run for, why keep going? What is my bloody goal, what am I fighting for, eh? The things I fought for before all went down the drain.
I have friends, and I like them. Do they like me back? I don't know. Do I give them a chance to like me? I don't know. I'm a very closed-up person and I have a great need for privacy. I simply have to be on my own once in a blue moon. That creates problems, big problems that I don't know how to solve. I wish I could change, I wish I could be better. I try, without any success. I simply don't know what I'm trying for.
"The why, the who, the what, the where and the how, 'til I'm grabbing my hair and I'm tearing it out" -Eminem.
I'm sorry people, I'm sorry I'm lost. Perdita sum. And for those who cannot see my p.o.v., just bear with me if you would. After all, I have told you before.
Please stop asking me, I have no idea what to tell you.
Ebba.
Förresten, hoppas att det gick bra idag Vicki ;)
Kommentarer
Postat av: -
You're lost, l get that. I feel the same, it's not easy to be a teenager ... Do you talk to your friends? You'll need them now, if you don't let them in, you will loose them... I've got my own experiense, l'm so alone. Use your friends, otherwise, you'll end up alone! If you'r not already there..
You have my thoughs!
Postat av: Leo
Well, I know I like you back for one...
Anyway, have you changed sex, or why are you writing "perditus sum"? ;P
Postat av: Ebba
Yeah, had meself a sexchange I did!
Thank you.
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