Boxes and Ladders
When you're down, you bring everyone else around you down as well. The problem is no one really wants to be down and therefore they don't want to be around you. So you're left alone on your own, and when you're lonely it's so easy to be depressed. And when you're depressed you shut yourself off and isolate yourself from the rest of the world. When you are this enclosed, nothing can pierce your walls, nothing can break them down and you lose yourself. You start lying to yourself, but you're too closed up to even notice. I don't believe you can be honest with anyone without being completely honest with yourself.
So you find yourself stuck in a space, where you're so lost you don't even realize you're lying. And you're too far away for anyone who tries to reach you, no one really wants to because they're afraid your melancholiness will drag them down too. That's why we have psychiatrists; we pay people to talk to us. Some people are fine with that, but for some enclosed people, it's simply impossible. I think that's when you need to start talking to yourself. You have to open up, be completely honest. Tell yourself lies are never good, they get you in trouble. Being in trouble is like being in a box. A box wrapped in chains and then put in another bigger box also chained and placed in a secret locked room where no one ever really goes.
When you've been inside that box for long enough, you forget what the outside is like. You can't seem to remember why you need to find a way out. A part of you gives up, tells you the people whom you shut off from in the first place have all given up on you, they've all stopped looking for you and they don't miss you anymore. At that time I think it's important to start sorting out your thoughts. Think about everything, don't just list it down. Take time to think. Whatever it is and however it affects your emotions. Whether it makes you happy, confused, disappointed, angry, sad, proud or whatever, just take the time to sort it out. Think about why it makes you feel they way it does. Think about everything, for ages. And then just let it go. Drop it. Leave it behind you and make room for the future. It's like throwing up I guess. You have all these emotions within you, all these corrupted thoughts, there's no room left for anything. Have a long good chat with yourself and you'll have a relief. You have to let the inside out in order to let the outside in. Picture the outside as a garden, a garden full of pretty birds flying freely, butterflies and sunshine and loads of happy people laughing and a barbeque.
So after a while, gather all your strength and try your utmost hardest to break loose, and you may break that outer box. You might not see anything, but you might hear the birds from the garden. You might hear the people laughing and you might smell the barbeque. It's hard, very hard not to give up but let it help you regain your strength and try again. This time you might make a hole in the box, and maybe you'll be able to see some birds and you may even feel the sun on your face.
Finally break the box, break all the chains. Cut yourself loose. Now the room you'll find yourself in is still locked and you don't have the key, but if the door is locked why not use the window. You might be high up though and risking a jump might cause you to break your neck. Time to call on your friends. Tell them to get a blasted ladder and get you down, I'm sure they'd be more than willing to help you.
And there you go, once they've helped you down you'll have something to talk about. Ladders.
So you find yourself stuck in a space, where you're so lost you don't even realize you're lying. And you're too far away for anyone who tries to reach you, no one really wants to because they're afraid your melancholiness will drag them down too. That's why we have psychiatrists; we pay people to talk to us. Some people are fine with that, but for some enclosed people, it's simply impossible. I think that's when you need to start talking to yourself. You have to open up, be completely honest. Tell yourself lies are never good, they get you in trouble. Being in trouble is like being in a box. A box wrapped in chains and then put in another bigger box also chained and placed in a secret locked room where no one ever really goes.
When you've been inside that box for long enough, you forget what the outside is like. You can't seem to remember why you need to find a way out. A part of you gives up, tells you the people whom you shut off from in the first place have all given up on you, they've all stopped looking for you and they don't miss you anymore. At that time I think it's important to start sorting out your thoughts. Think about everything, don't just list it down. Take time to think. Whatever it is and however it affects your emotions. Whether it makes you happy, confused, disappointed, angry, sad, proud or whatever, just take the time to sort it out. Think about why it makes you feel they way it does. Think about everything, for ages. And then just let it go. Drop it. Leave it behind you and make room for the future. It's like throwing up I guess. You have all these emotions within you, all these corrupted thoughts, there's no room left for anything. Have a long good chat with yourself and you'll have a relief. You have to let the inside out in order to let the outside in. Picture the outside as a garden, a garden full of pretty birds flying freely, butterflies and sunshine and loads of happy people laughing and a barbeque.
So after a while, gather all your strength and try your utmost hardest to break loose, and you may break that outer box. You might not see anything, but you might hear the birds from the garden. You might hear the people laughing and you might smell the barbeque. It's hard, very hard not to give up but let it help you regain your strength and try again. This time you might make a hole in the box, and maybe you'll be able to see some birds and you may even feel the sun on your face.
Finally break the box, break all the chains. Cut yourself loose. Now the room you'll find yourself in is still locked and you don't have the key, but if the door is locked why not use the window. You might be high up though and risking a jump might cause you to break your neck. Time to call on your friends. Tell them to get a blasted ladder and get you down, I'm sure they'd be more than willing to help you.
And there you go, once they've helped you down you'll have something to talk about. Ladders.
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